am i?

nowdays~many changes between us?

2012?a goal for me~

to be a strong and happy girl~

weird~weirdy~

i feel like a wall was standing between us~

we are close but the feeling is we are too far~

thinking~

wat have i done?

u said~its boring always wit you all the time~speechless for him~

thinking twice~

its tat juz a lie~

i hope so~

think again?

r u still loving me??

kip on asking myself~

gosh~a word starting to willing in my mind~

shouldn't think too much~

few days before~

i wanted to hug you~

you pised off my hand~

my heart was hurting ~

tears dropping the whole night~

u knw??

thinking again~

are you still care about me?

gosh~

thursday~

i cant even stop to think~

i have enough~

i oso a human being~

y should i keep on think and care about you ~

youdun even think about my feeling at all~

i started to angry~

angry wit you~

but at last~

u din treat me chill and bad~

u still think for me~

u buy wat i nid ~

u still care about my feeling~

thanks God for always blessing me~

my mood ~getting better~

the last thinking for me~

i should be more patient and more care about myself~

brave~strong~convenience right?

weirdo~

just a word to say too~

i m still loving him ~wit full of heart~

future?

no ones knw wat will happen

but pls appreciate wat you have know~

and appreciate who wit you~

shouldn;t think too much in our life~

use these time to do something tat is meaningful~

by the way~

GUD LUCK ANGELINE NG~

内心的恐惧

其实每个人的内心都有自己的恐惧～

而我也是～

简单地说我是很没安全感的人～

我怕孤独～怕自己一个人～

小时候的阴影让我跨不了～

可是我很努力～

也许你不喜欢我依赖你～

也许你真的需要自己的个人空间～

对～每个人都需要～

我在想～昨天的吵架让我想清楚了许多～

我不该什么都问你～什么都赖着你～

我也该有自己的主见～

这就是我要改变的东西～

其实我真的发觉～我很累～

把自己搞得人不像人～

不是对爱情累～而是对每样东西都累～

人生就是这样咯～

我决定了～放开自己～

想开点～这样对你我都很好～

我很情绪化～的确～

我爱你的心永远都不变～

爱太深了～拔不出来了～

所以就学着去控制吧～

我不找你～因为我们都需要冷静～

我相信你～也相信我自己～

加油吧老公～

我也加油～让大家一起加油～

我们一定能做到～

still the same word i wana tell you 

is

I LOVE YOU!!!!<3

Cherish(珍惜)~

珍惜这两个字写是很简单~

但是用心了解真的那么简单吗？

我觉得我真的很笨~

总是不了解不珍惜~

这是对我的家人，朋友和我最爱的人~

最近我感觉良好~因为我想得很开~

我也不知道为什么会这样~

还是这是成长的过程吗？

XD

希望这是哦~因为这样证明我长大了~

嘻嘻嘻~昨天是我和老公的一年四个月的纪念日~

我很用心做了一个video 给老公~

可是老公说很geli 哦~算了吧~

呵呵呵呵~也许一起久了~就不需要这种小孩子的玩意儿吧~

哈哈哈哈~所以我没生气或伤心哦~

因为我要学会包容~嘻嘻嘻嘻~

这是最高境界~

好了写到这~

老公我爱你哦~muakzzza

需要

再想着～我需要的是什么～

在想着～为什么很多人说我总是要为别人而活～

在想着～总在想着～

为朋友而活？

为家人而活?

为情人而活？

其实对我来说～我并没有～

我只觉得他们开心我也开心～

所以我很努力地走下去～

当然偶尔也会为自己着想啦～

回想起来以前真的很愚蠢～

总是想得到一点的关心就无理取闹～

以为这样就能得到更多的关心～

其实并没有～这样只会令人更伤心～

关心并不一定表现出来～

心里懂就好～

我愿意为他做那么东西～

并不是因为怕失去他～

而是因为我真的爱他～

所以不要求任何回报～

每个人都说我笨～

可是你们并不知道～

如果没有他～我也许没活着～

也许还在思想不成熟的阶段中～

我也许还不知道～什么是爱情～

我也许不知道什么是关心～

我也许不知道什么是被重视～

谢谢只不过是语言上的一种礼貌～

心里要真的懂得谢谢～

hehehe~by the way~

bii i love you!!!!!alwaysss~~

thank you~

成长中的我

好久没上来写了～

这期间发生了好多事情～

说来话长～也懒惰写～

六月中我经历了我和他的过渡期～

这期间真的很难受～

他对我冷淡～我做错一点小事情他就不理我～

给我的一种感觉就是～他不想理我～

在这段时期里～我真的很辛苦～

我一直回家逃避～

可惜发现这方法是没用的～

后来我面对～我忍耐～我等待～

幸好我做的一切都是值得的～^^

我很开心我一直坚持～

说真的因为我是真的很爱他所以才会坚持～

他是好男人～也是个可爱的男人～

总言来说他是我的男人～哈哈哈

这期间我改变了很多～

当然我也真的必须改变～

朋友～家人都说我变成熟了～

变得会想了～^^

这几句话我感动了～

其实真爱不需用口说～

心里也会明白～现在我总算知道这道理了～

哈哈哈哈～

更可恶的是～前天老公突然要退学了～

我一点心理准备都没有～因为太突然了～

先前我已知道他要退学～

心里不开心不想他走～因为很可惜～

可是这毕竟是他的决定～我会尊重他～甚至会支持他～

因为他会想了～

我前天哭了很久～哭下停下～

到了下午他和我说他不退了～

哈哈哈哈哈～

很开心真的很开心～

老公加油～我永远都支持你～=)

muakzzzzz

sad day

today before 12 pm....is my sad day...

i m so stress...

first time gt tis kind of stress....

i really canot tahan d...

in the toilat i cry out....

i found tat after i cry out....

i bcum more comfortable....

aiksss....

ltr i have to solve the problem...

me n him....

i ask him if i go taiwan study...

will u love another one....

he say....

 maybe won't "GUA"

after i heard...

i feel sad....

nt i dunwan trust him....

is he say like tat....i feel upset...

haizzz....maybe tis is  my wrong...i shouldn't say tat....

sry....

my dear....

u r the one i love the most...

n i of coz trust u love me....

bt...i hope i can get more safety...

now i really nid u....

i prank by ppl b4....

but....i try my best to trust u...

i juz want u to gv me feel more safety whn i wit u....



changes....

Tat day i tell him sumting....

i told him tat we break....

because i think tat he didn;t love me anymore...

but i am wrong....

i think too much....

maybe i m still not too understand him....

maybe.....

now all my mind is maybe....maybe...maybe....

lol....after skul we discuss....n we try to solve it...

after discuss i realized tat tis are all my problem that makes him treat me so chill....

so i try to change....after tis one two days...ya i got change....

but after two days later....i cum bac again....

i didn't change my attitude ....

lol....i so angry of myself...

y??y???

y i say to myself n ask me to chage but i din do it...i hate myself...

maybe the one reason is i have gotten u in mylife...

i have gotten to stick wit u....i have gotten to find u....

n noiw...i tell myself....i will try to not to find u...

i will try to do anything by myself....

i should 'more strong....

n one thing i have to say...i din cry more....

bcoz i knw tat u dun like i cry...of coz everyone dun love to see me cry oso....

but i have to tell u sumting....

i always love you...

the ever until i end i end my life....